random thoughts

Been a long time not writing here.. a long, crazy, and random words which came from mine. Missing me, anyone? No? You gotta be kidding me.. Kangenin donk kangeniiiiiin.. puhleeaasseeeee? Haha.. *kedipin ;p

Mau curhat dikit. 

Udah lama kan ga curhat panjang2 ga karuan disini, haha.. Btw, life's good nowadays. Busy like a bee and still trying to be more productive one. Kemilau? So sorry to say, not as good as it seems but yep.. we're still going. And moving out. Yep! Saya dan tim akan pindah kantor dari Duren Tiga ke sebuah ruang baru di bilangan Tebet. Baru 3 bulan dan pindah? Kenapa ngga? I'm not gonna tell you the detail here, so please call me if you need or just want to know the reason why. 

Many things happen. 

Datang bertubi-tubi, saling bertumpukan dan bertubrukkan. Meledak kayak bom waktu, berbalik menyerang kayak bumerang. But it's still good for me. At least, I'm still waving my hands on the air and smile, until this afternoon. I cried. After a long time. Last year, maybe. When me and my Ex broke up. Jadi kenapa baru tadi nangisnya? Karena saya udah ga kuat, hahaha.. Bukan berarti saya nyerah sama semuanya, tapi ternyata sesekali nangis itu perlu lho. Itupun tadi nangis gara2 nonton marathon New Girl di StarWorld dan mendadak mellow yellow helloooow gara-gara scene nya bikin hati mendadak sensitif. Padahal ceritanya cheesy banget, tapi malah nangis banjir ditambah efek ke-flashback semua memori masa lalu. Again. Masa lalu, yang juga belom pergi berlalu. Halah! *nunduk sedih. Tapi legaaaa abis nangis banjir seember tadi, rasanya semua yang kependem sendirian bisa dikeluarin tanpa harus berkata-kata (khususnya buat sekarang lho ya). Abis itu ya udah, balik kalem lagi, haha..

So thaaat.. Demi kembali berdamai dengan diri sendiri dan segala proses perintilannya yang ga selesai-selesai dan bahkan harus diulang lagi, I finally removed a special ringtone from my cellphone. If you already heard it after soooo many years (lebay) T-shirt by Shontelle? Yep.. Done one. Next will be more extreme and won't tell it here before my mission accomplished.

Think that I lose my insanity gradually. 

Atau mungkin kurang bersyukur. Dikasih banyak jalan untuk dipilih malah misuh-misuh ngerasa diribetin. Giliran mulai hilang satu per satu malah diem-diem nyariin, hahaha.. People may come and go, but back again,  all I need is just one who could stand beside me and my imperfections. Doesn't mean I'm not trying try yaa.. I do, but honestly I said, not 100% trying. There's still a black hole in mine and I'm not 100% have a healthy heart right now. Recovering, yeeeesssssss....... And waiting the new one #eaaaaa. So please for anyone who read this, anyone who looking for my attention, please don't play save, seriously. #frontal

Back on the track.

I need a little escape. Holiday. Vacation. Apapun namanya. Tapi mengingat banyaknya hal yang harus diurusin disini, santai-santai is only a word. Yudadahbabay kata saya sih. Nantilah ada waktunya, buat sekarang sih santai-santai nya cuma bisa disempetin buat nge-spa, nonton bioskop marathon (aaaak~ belom nonton Madagascar sama Spiderman..!!), ngupi lucu sama anak-anak, duduk haha hihi di kampus, ngeliat futsal, blog walking (saya lagi baca Beats Apart di Tumblr, lho, yang kebetulan ehem.. Beberapa part nya lagi mirip) dan nyempetin diri belanja (lha, banyaaaak..!! Haha..)

Last,

Saya merasa diingatkan sama diri sendiri untuk merendah, terus usaha, balik lagi bersyukur bersyukur dan bersyukur sebelum nantinya "digampar" sama orang buat ngingetin saya. Pasti bakal jadi lebih buruk lagi nge-down nya. Untung sadar yaa.. Tinggal balik ke saya nya aja gimana prosesnya. Termasuk satu hal yang lagi penting banget harus saya ubah, TIME MANAGEMENT! My oh my.. Rasanya kok lagi hancur berantakan bertebaran kemana-mana gini konsentrasinya sampe ga fokus. Ck!

Well.. That's all for this post. See you very soon, live your life to the fullest, have a nice weekend and take care, fellas! *smooch :)